A Friday Night in November

Hi friends,

Well it's Friday night. We are definitely close to the end of the semester, as I have joined the other students here at Peoples (Berkeley coffee shop) tonight for a good study atmosphere away from home. There's just under 3 weeks worth of class left...and am I feeling it. I have three papers to write this weekend, all which should have been turned in earlier of course... Thankfully I have great professors who understand that sometimes life or class gets in the way and they can grace us enough to turn things in when they're done instead of by the deadline. Unfortunately that can be the worst news ever for me in writing papers...I'm so much better with a hard deadline b/c I work well under pressure! So nonetheless, here I am trying to meet my own deadline, procrastinating (obviously), and wishing that somehow these papers would write themselves. I enjoy the writing process, but it is a lengthy one for me, thus quite dreaded indeed. At least I have some good tunes to keep me company...EC gave me the new John Mayer, Battle Studies, this week. It's pretty great. I recommend it if you like some heart-felt lyrics, driven melodies, lots of musical layers, and some tasty blues every once in a while.

I'm heading back to the Midwest for Thanksgiving! Getting pretty excited. 5 days, I think? I'm trying not to count on account of all that work that needs to get done before leaving... I'll fly into MSP where TH will pick me up and we'll make the 3.5 hour trek to my parents' house for a long weekend. Eventually the group will include my grandparents, aunt and uncle, cousins, brother, parents, maybe a sister and another uncle. I'm under the impression that there will be no snow. So unlike the Thanksgivings past. I'm excited nonetheless - excited to see family and friends (maybe even KS and her husband!), and the family dog, of course. I'm even looking forward to those legendary conversations that come up only at family gatherings of this kind. Watching the Packers, eating turkey and all the fixin's, the cool Midwest air that smells of winter approaching, fires in the fireplace... Should be a great holiday. I love Thanksgiving. I hope yours is full of what you need this year...and may we all recognize and be thankful for the many gifts in our lives.

Endorsement, Horizon, and Fall Break

It's about time I update you on all the latest happenings, including my Endorsement Interview! I had my interview on Oct. 13 and was Recommended for Endorsement! It is not an official Endorsement yet, as the whole Candidacy Committee needs to vote on the recommendation. I'm guessing I'll hear in the next couple weeks what the outcome is. The interview went well...and my committee was very supportive.

The Sassy Ladies trip in Austin was great. One of my highlights was going two stepping at the Broken Spoke, just outside Austin. What a great place! Looked like a 'hole in the wall' but turned out to be THE place to be on a Thursday night.

I still struggle with this system, of course, and now it shows up more in my experience of the way Internship is setup. There isn't one general pool of internship sites for all ELCA seminarians...congregations interested in having an intern need to apply to the seminary that they want an intern from, and those are the congregations that we end up at as interns. Seems to me like there should be an ELCA-wide system that supports all seminaries instead of making congregations choose one or another.

There's another internship track in addition to the 'regular' one I describe above - Horizon. It can be expensive to have an intern because the congregation is expected to pay for housing, health insurance, and a small stipend. Congregations that can't afford to pay for all of that can apply to be a Horizon Internship site and they will then be expected to pay only a third of the cost, the other two-thirds being provided by the seminary and the synod....I think...don't quote me as a source on these details! However it happens, Horizon is a different track for Internship. Students need to apply for a Horizon site if they are interested. It is a longer application process than the 'regular' internship track - more essays, etc. If a student is accepted into Horizon, they are then assigned a site and need to decide whether or not they still want to go. If so, that is their site. If not, they fall into the 'regular' internship track and get matched up with a congregation that way.

All this is to say that I applied to the Horizon Internship program. I don't think we hear about it until January, so I need to apply to be in the 'regular' track as well. I'll let you know how it goes. Horizon sites are all across the country, both urban and rural. I requested to be at an urban site. We'll see how it goes!

Classes are good...it's a little crazy around here. We had fall break recently (the last week of October) and it seems like for the rest of the semester we will continue to feel overwhelmed with all this work - especially paper writing.

Fall break was great! TH came for a visit the first weekend...so wonderful. TM came from Colorado for the rest of the week. It was so good to see her! She did some of her own sightseeing of San Fran while I did some work, and then we went to wine country together for some views at Cline and Paradise Ridge wineries. We stayed with KD and JW, and enjoyed some live music and cards at a coffee shop that night. The next morning we stopped by Muir Woods and Muir Beach on the way back to Berkeley. So beautiful. Those redwoods are breathtaking.

That's it for this morning. It's time for me to get ready for church. I hope you are enjoying the fall...the chill is starting to set in around here.

Challenges outside of class and Critique of the ELCA seminary system

Outside of class I am challenged with personal growth issues that I first grew aware of in CPE (like finding a voice and learning to have confidence in the gifts God has given me, one of those being a leader - I find that using my gifts for leadership is especially challenging among my peers). I am challenged (and blessed) with living in a small community once again. I am challenged in caring deeply for someone 2,000 miles away and in looking toward an unknown future with him.

(There are a number of challenges our seminary system presents for single people, and married people, in the way it is setup...I believe all the parts are important (academic study, CPE, internship, a short cross-cultural experience, Teaching Parish), but it seems like there must be a better way...one more conducive to today’s person with financial challenges.

[Side note: did you know Lutheran seminary used to be free once upon a time? It was that way for my grandfather when he was in seminary so many years ago. Today we pay almost as much as a private school education, with tuition, room, board, insurance, and all the necessities. It’s ridiculous. There is help out there, but even the help isn’t across the board for everyone, nor is it very helpful for some. I am so frustrated with the scholarship philosophy currently, which favors students at some seminaries over others by having each school raise it’s own money for scholarships, instead of having a general pool of scholarship money for all eight ELCA seminaries. To me this system says that we care about students at some schools more than others. This is not consistent with our theology! I am so thankful to have gifts from family, friends, congregations, and PLTS to be able to be here.]

To explain why I think the seminary process isn’t so user friendly: “traditionally” it is expected that students complete four years of seminary - either at an ELCA sem. or at any school of your choice, but the latter requires a year of study at the former to be ordained in the ELCA, a requirement that seems very fitting. The third of those four years is for internship, unless the student has a legitimate reason for requesting a fourth-year internship (which sometimes then still requires a semester at sem. after, before being up for a congregational call). This means that for the first two years and the last year, a “traditional” seminary student can expect to be in one place (for me, Berkeley), unless the student decides to transfer for whatever reason. The third year is spent somewhere other than that one place, unless one restricts (which you also have to have reason to do...like your spouse works where you need to be, etc. Just wanting to stay in one place is not acceptable.) Let me say that I am not against moving or doing ministry in different contexts, especially different locational contexts around the country. The challenge for me, a single young person who is interested in finding someone to spend my life with, is that if I were to find someone that I was interested in at least exploring a future with someone, it is almost impossible that we could be in the same place for two or three years, thereby struggling to explore that future from a distance, which I have to admit is very hard to do. [For married or engaged people, there is a similar challenge that I won’t go into for the sake of this blog getting terribly long.] I am not saying any of this is impossible, but you’d think that we could work to make the system a little more “user” friendly. Some of my criticisms of this process...)

I am trying to take the current challenges (remember? I mentioned them so long ago at the beginning of this post.) head on, wrestling with them, and actively seeking to grow from them. I started going to therapy last week, and I am very excited about the potential gained from such experiences. I have already been exposed to so many opportunities to work on my personal growth, and it seems like therapy will be another step of intentionality about facing my challenges.

The Class (and Book) List

I am very excited for this trip (Sassy Ladies). And it is a welcome excitement, for this school year has seemed really hard for me. Academically, things are great - I love my classes, and I even love what we’re reading and the things we’re being challenged to do! Though it’s a lot to keep up with, as usual, I am having so much fun. The rundown of classes, assigned textbooks and other reading:

Preaching - Preaching by Fred Craddock; The Homiletical Plot by Eugene Lowry

Systematic Theology - God - The World's Future by Ted Peters; various readings by a number of great theologians like Martin Luther, Karl Barth, Jurgen Moltmann, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Catherine Mowry LaCugna, Karl Rahner, and Paul Tillich

Worship Prep - Preparing for Liturgy by Austin Fleming

Ministry Across Cultures (pre-req. for doing my Cross-Cultural Experience in January) - A Different Mirror: A History of Multicultural America by Ronald Takaki; The Wolf Shall Dwell with The Lamb by Eric Law; Injustice and the Care of Souls: Taking Oppression Seriously in Pastoral Care by Sheryl Kujuway-Holbrook and Karen Montagno; A Theology of Liberation by Gustavo Gutierrez

[Lutheran] Confessions - The Book of Concord: The Confessions of the Evangelical Lutheran Church ed. Robert Kolb and Timothy Wengert; Fortress Introduction to the Lutheran Confessions by Guenther Gassman and Scott Hendrix; The Augsburg Confession: A Commentary by Leif Grane; Lutheranism: The Theological Movement and Its Confessional Writings by Eric Gritsch and Robert Jenson

Sassy Ladies in Austin

The time has come for the annual Sassy Ladies trip! I’m finally in Austin with the Sauey family ladies. There are 10 of us this year. My mom and I got to be the planners this year, so I’m pretty excited to show the girls around the city. Our itinerary includes things like the Austin Duck Adventures (which is totally perfect for our group!), touring the state capital, shopping on South Congress, and the Austin Bats under the South Congress bridge. I really enjoy getting to do this trip each year. I love getting to know my aunts and grandma better, and spending time with my mom and sis. Being in a group of ladies that are all related is a special, exciting, and meaningful experience. Last year I realized that we could be more intentional about learning from one another and sharing our life experiences, so one night I asked the group how they knew they wanted to marry the person they married, or what attracted them to him, etc. I really enjoyed the sharing that followed - it was a level of intimacy I hadn’t experienced with them. This year my mom and I have been intentional about including a time for that intimate conversation, and we’ve been trying to come up with questions to ask. My mom invested in a package of “girl talk” cards for some ideas. We haven’t decided on the question yet, but I am already looking forward to the conversation. One question I have been tossing around from conversations with my mom and sister is about giving up/changing/modifying last names for marriage. As women, I think this could be insightful and valuable for us. We’ll see what happens.